ugh…this is a bad habit.
ive been trying to do the very best i could …
since ive been loving you boy
im about to lose my worried mind.
Ooh, youre searching for something I know, wont make you happy
Ooh, youre thirsting for something I know, wont make you happy
Ooh, you did it all again, you broke another skin
Its hard to believe this time, hard to believe
That my heart, my hearts an open door… See More
You got all you came for, baby
So weary, someone to love is bigger than your prides worth
Is bigger than the pain you got for it hurts
And out runs all of the sadness
Its terrifying, life, through the darkness
And Id do it all again, Id do it all again
Id do it all again, Id do it all again
You try sometimes but it wont stop
You got my heart and my heads lost, ooh yeah
Ive been burning down these candles for love, for love
So weary, someone to love is bigger than your pride
Ooh, someone to love, mm, someone to love
Someone to love
Ooh, youre searching for something I know, wont make you happy
Ooh
cried in such a long time, but here i am pouring out.Im so dumb, all i did was hang out with him..and now i feel like all the happiness got sucked out of me.
now i have to restart this whole process again.I have to stay in for a couple of days and recover from this dumb heartache..
how dumb was i?…to think anything good would come out of this
i tried to enjoy a night out with my friends and all i was doing was waiting for his txt
WTF.
end this here NOW.
fuck this.fuck him.fuck the fact that i base my entire life off of my emotions.
hanging out with him makes me sad
whyd i fuck up
why didnt i stay away.
i have to end this here.
drunken night with joan
he cheated gah :/
well atleast i know my feelings are fading for him :]
i would be completely fine when school ended
but no..
ill be fine when he fucking leaves the country.
…..I love this.
finally feeling the strings un-tie themselves.
now i can breath a little easier.
i cant wait till i’m completely fine.
…and maybe one day we’ll be just friends.
But for now we’re strangers.Finally going our separate ways.But before then
before i completely try to forget you…i want to write what you truly were to me.
Protection, the one thing i always wanted…since i was a little girl.Your hugs made me feel so safe.And honestly i loved your anger problems, you made it feel like no one could hurt me.
….but when you hit me…the protection thing was lost.
Your comfort, the cuddling, sleeping together, …your heart beat were the only things i looked forward to.I felt like the only way i could deal with my life is if i could feel your skin every other day, and if i had it my way…every day.every minute , every second would be spent laying on your chest….hearing you breath.
That smile….that kills me every time.sends a fucking pain through my body every time i see it.
Your kisses, if i could live off them i would.i loved the little kisses you gave me when i slept over.I loved those kisses on my back.felt like heaven.but what i loved the most…and it rarely happened..were the kisses on my forehead.That goes hand in hand with feeling like you were protecting me.
The love we made, wasn’t always romantic, but i loved it, i loved feeling your hands, holding me tight.I loved hearing your moans.I loved hearing you breath so hard.
i hated, not finding the right words to say, not being able to say all the i love you’s when i couldve.
i hate to think that’ll ill be just a bad memory.
..but what ill miss the most
is waking up in the middle of the night whispering sweet “i love you’s” into you ear and hoping you were dreaming of me <3
was AMAZING.
i havent had so much fun in a while
and getting my life back on track
just makes shit better for me
i can now enjoy a night out , without negative thoughts.
i love this.i love this feeling, and theres no way in hell im giving up
i feel stronger..
and day by day he fades away
and now my tears can stay in
cause i cant even cry anymore.
i feel like….
im finally…getting over him :]
