My Little Secret

ugh…this is a bad habit.

Mon, 06 Jun 2011 13:16:26 -0400

ugh…this is a bad habit.

ive been trying to do the very best i could … since ive...

Mon, 06 Jun 2011 13:12:55 -0400

ive been trying to do the very best i could …

since ive been loving you boy

im about to lose my worried mind.

Ooh, youre searching for something I know, wont make you...

Fri, 03 Jun 2011 10:29:25 -0400

Ooh, youre searching for something I know, wont make you happy
Ooh, youre thirsting for something I know, wont make you happy
Ooh, you did it all again, you broke another skin
Its hard to believe this time, hard to believe
That my heart, my hearts an open door… See More
You got all you came for, baby
So weary, someone to love is bigger than your prides worth
Is bigger than the pain you got for it hurts
And out runs all of the sadness
Its terrifying, life, through the darkness
And Id do it all again, Id do it all again
Id do it all again, Id do it all again
You try sometimes but it wont stop
You got my heart and my heads lost, ooh yeah
Ive been burning down these candles for love, for love
So weary, someone to love is bigger than your pride
Ooh, someone to love, mm, someone to love
Someone to love
Ooh, youre searching for something I know, wont make you happy
Ooh

i haven't..

Wed, 01 Jun 2011 23:51:00 -0400

cried in such a long time, but here i am pouring out.Im so dumb, all i did was hang out with him..and now i feel like all the happiness got sucked out of me.

now i have to restart this whole process again.I have to stay in for a couple of days and recover from this dumb heartache..

how dumb was i?…to think anything good would come out of this

i tried to enjoy a night out with my friends and all i was doing was waiting for his txt

WTF.

end this here NOW.

fuck this.fuck him.fuck the fact that i base my entire life off of my emotions.

ugh..

Wed, 01 Jun 2011 10:06:51 -0400

hanging out with him makes me sad

whyd i fuck up

why didnt i stay away.

i have to end this here.

ahhh i fuhd up

Sun, 29 May 2011 19:36:25 -0400

drunken night with joan

he cheated gah :/

well atleast i know my feelings are fading for him :]

and i thought...

Sat, 28 May 2011 16:08:39 -0400

i would be completely fine when school ended

but no..

ill be fine when he fucking leaves the country.

<3

Wed, 25 May 2011 14:23:30 -0400

…..I love this.

finally feeling the strings un-tie themselves.

now i can breath a little easier.

i cant wait till i’m completely fine.

The End

Sun, 22 May 2011 22:13:13 -0400

…and maybe one day we’ll be just friends.

But for now we’re strangers.Finally going our separate ways.But before then

before i completely try to forget you…i want to write what you truly were to me.

Protection, the one thing i always wanted…since i was a little girl.Your hugs made me feel so safe.And honestly i loved your anger problems, you made it feel like no one could hurt me.

….but when you hit me…the protection thing was lost.

Your comfort, the cuddling, sleeping together, …your heart beat were the only things i looked forward to.I felt like the only way i could deal with my life is if i could feel your skin every other day, and if i had it my way…every day.every minute , every second would be spent laying on your chest….hearing you breath.

That smile….that kills me every time.sends a fucking pain through my body every time i see it.

Your kisses, if i could live off them i would.i loved the little kisses you gave me when i slept over.I loved those kisses on my back.felt like heaven.but what i loved the most…and it rarely happened..were the kisses on my forehead.That goes hand in hand with feeling like you were protecting me.

The love we made, wasn’t always romantic, but i loved it, i loved feeling your hands, holding me tight.I loved hearing your moans.I loved hearing you breath so hard.

i hated, not finding the right words to say, not being able to say all the i love you’s when i couldve.

i hate to think that’ll ill be just a bad memory.

..but what ill miss the most

is waking up in the middle of the night whispering sweet “i love you’s” into you ear and hoping you were dreaming of me <3

Prom night :]

Sun, 22 May 2011 21:31:00 -0400

was AMAZING.

i havent had so much fun in a while

and getting my life back on track

just makes shit better for me

i can now enjoy a night out , without negative thoughts.

i love this.i love this feeling, and theres no way in hell im giving up

i feel stronger..

and day by day he fades away

and now my tears can stay in

cause i cant even cry anymore.

i feel like….

im finally…getting over him :]

So... far...

Tue, 17 May 2011 22:46:21 -0400

i dont miss you

well kinda but not really

i like this feeling…of having my life back

everythings going back to the norm

..and…i think of it this way

im so much stronger because…

im learning to live without you..

your learning to live without me… by replacing me.

your weak.

and when i say im in love with this song…im IN FUCKING GOD...

Sun, 15 May 2011 20:04:04 -0400

and when i say im in love with this song…im IN FUCKING GOD DAMN LOVE with this song.

Tue, 10 May 2011 22:34:16 -0400

oh…and yea they distract me

but deep down all i want is you.

makes me happy

Tue, 10 May 2011 20:56:34 -0400

makes me happy

"They say two wrongs don’t make it right so if i’m wrong i ain’t tryin’ to..."

Tue, 10 May 2011 20:20:54 -0400

“They say two wrongs don’t make it right
so if i’m wrong i ain’t tryin’ to fight
i’m tryin’ to have some dinner with some candlelight
lay up in bed and make love all night”

- Wyclef

:’(

Tue, 10 May 2011 20:13:57 -0400

:’(

so...

Tue, 10 May 2011 20:13:36 -0400

i totally jinxed myself with that last post

…cause i had such a good dream

and woke up with the worst feeling.

Im going to sleep...

Sun, 08 May 2011 22:54:50 -0400

and maybe tonight i wont miss you.

BITING BITING BITING

Sun, 08 May 2011 22:35:54 -0400

biting down on these fucking nails to the core.

im so nervous…for EVERYTHING.

FUCK MY LIFE...!!!

Sun, 08 May 2011 22:20:39 -0400

just ran out of god damn printing paper

…omg i hate this week with a passion.

My Little Secret

ugh…this is a bad habit.

ive been trying to do the very best i could … since ive...

Ooh, youre searching for something I know, wont make you...

i haven't..

ugh..

ahhh i fuhd up

and i thought...

<3

The End

Prom night :]

So... far...

and when i say im in love with this song…im IN FUCKING GOD...

Tue, 10 May 2011 22:34:16 -0400 oh…and yea they distract me but deep down all i want is you.

makes me happy

"They say two wrongs don’t make it right so if i’m wrong i ain’t tryin’ to..."

:’(

so...

Im going to sleep...

BITING BITING BITING

FUCK MY LIFE...!!!

Tue, 10 May 2011 22:34:16 -0400

oh…and yea they distract me

but deep down all i want is you.